Here lately, I have had a million things going on in my mind. We are preparing for the baby the best that we can. We have our financial plan in place and that is a huge relief. We are still trying to figure out who we want to care for the baby when I go back to work. There is so much fear in us about people watching our only baby. If you haven't experienced what we have, you will never understand what this feeling is like. It is very scary to think that people that you would normally trust, could possibly hurt your baby. This brings up a lot of offense to others, but it's a reality that we have to face. When you have the life of your first child/step child taken away from you, it really makes you think about things you wouldn't normally consider. You never want to tell someone that you love that you don't trust them with your baby. There just isn't a delicate way to put it... or at least I can't think of one if there is. Needless to say, we are going to be very cautious and protective. Also, there is the fear that something unexpected would happen. I realize that we can't live our lives in fear, but tell that to someone who hasn't had to watch and experience what our family has. Carter taught us more than we realized in just a short 5 months. We are very thankful for that. We have a lot of pros and cons and situations to consider in the next 7 months. It's not going to be as easy as picking out bedding, furniture, etc. We pray that whatever decision that we make is going to be the right one for the baby.
Prayers...
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